Ashe Elton Parker

A Writer of LGBTQ+ Characters in Speculative Fiction

Tag: writing or lack thereof

15Nov18: Slow Day

I didn’t get much done Thursday. Lack of motivation got me. Did go to gaming with my longtime gaming friends, got a plot card on Unwritten Letters, and chatted with Mom. Aside from those things, nothing else.

6Nov18: Day Off

I took one of my days off Tuesday and did almost nothing from my list because I was feeling unmotivated. The feeling was unexpected, but I went with it, especially since I hadn’t yet taken one of my 2 weekly days off writing. It wasn’t a bipolar mood thing, or due to being tired, but simple lack of motivation. Instead of doing things off my list, I idled the day away in chats, then in the evening watched some Forensic Files on Netflix and crocheted a bit. I did do my languages early on in the afternoon, too. It felt good to relax one day and not do anything. That was, I think, a break I needed. Another thing I didn’t do was go to my volunteer shift. I wasn’t feeling well—a physical malady with cramps and a persistent headache that no amount of lying down helped alleviate, and I did that three or four times. Can’t really say that this physical illness affected my productivity yesterday, because I’ve been quite productive on other days when I’ve been physically ill some way.

16Aug18: Some New Arrangements

My shelves for Gaming Stuff!

After Daz left around 02:30 or 03:00, I went to bed too. Didn’t sleep much or well, but I do recall an interesting dream of me going into an underground realm of giants to rescue people. I wish I could remember more, just on the off chance it would have made a good story. That’s a writer for you.

Sometime around 07:30, Daz texted me. I’d forgotten to turn sound off on my phone, but I went ahead and carried on a conversation about his character, mostly because I’d panned to get up around 08:00 anyway. We texted back and forth for about twenty minutes, and I got out of bed when we seemed to be done. Came out to living room, did morning routine, and settled in to work on the new encounters I wanted to make for my players. Worked on that for a couple hours or so.

By 10:00, I knew Greg wouldn’t be able to make it to game, so when Trish contacted me about gaming, I said just to cancel it ’cause Greg couldn’t make it and I was too exhausted. I told her I’d have been willing to tough it out if we’d been able to do D&D, but I didn’t have the drive to do anything else if we couldn’t do the D&D. The impression I got from her reply was that nobody on her end was broken up about canceling game completely.

Daz came up with his character sheet after that and we hammered out more of his character’s backstory and the plans for how they’re going to join the group. I gave him one of my last two binders and he departed to prepare for GMing his Thursday evening session of Pathfinder.

I did a few things after that. Organized my shelves so all my gaming stuff is on two of them; emailed various players in my group about backstory stuff they need to turn in if they haven’t already (as well as replacement stuff that I’ve lost somehow); tried to work on my Pathfinder character’s backstory but made no progress; tried to write with again no progress; and then engaged in an hours-long chat with Kit on MeWe.

A Better Day

Sunday was a better day. I was better rested, and had a fun time gaming. Wanted to write too, but that never actually happened, though I did read a bit.

A Good Day

Red Dice

D&D Dice!

Sunday had something of a rough start, but not due to depression. I just went to bed later than I should have Saturday night and had to get up early. Still, I slept fairly well.

First thing I did today was go grocery shopping. My friend Ross took me. I probably didn’t get all the food I need, though, because I didn’t use a grocery list. Also, I tend to cycle through cravings and I think I’m between two different menus dictated by those cravings.
Since I didn’t yet know where we were gaming Monday—Kit hadn’t called or texted about how his conversation with Katie went—I got our sodas. They’ll get drunk regardless of where we game.

I didn’t even bother putting all my groceries away when I got home. Because I hadn’t wanted any of the food I did have for breakfast, I needed to eat, then I had to head out to Oasis Games for the day’s D&D session with Lynn. When I got there, I sat out front because I forgot Lynn rented one of the store’s 2 private rooms for gaming. Kit and Cayden joined me shortly thereafter, then Lynn arrived with Phil and Dan. Duly reminded of where we were gaming, I joined everybody else in the private room, and a new player joined us. Michael was supposed to come last week, but something came up where he wasn’t able to make it. I didn’t find the session as fun as I usually do, mostly, I think, because I was still feeling a little tired.

When I got home after gaming, I pretty much went right to bed for a nap. I was pretty pooped and was down for about 2 hours, and rose feeling refreshed. Came out to the living room to work on my writing, but it was a no-go for a number of reasons: 1) I’d pretty much beaten dead my creative mind over the past few days with writing a lot; 2) I was struggling to read my wips, which I need to be able to do so I can figure out what previous scenes to spring new scenes off of; 3) and I was mentally comparing my writing to that book I described back in the 15th’s post.

Chatted with Mom on the phone, for about half an hour. It was a good chat. Also contacted Kit about painting minis, which we set up for Wednesday. Left a message for Greg about gaming. Emailed Phil about something he mentioned for our gaming sessions on Saturdays for the future.

It was a good day, overall, but now it’s after midnight and I’m still not tired ’cause of that nap! LOL

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