I’m once again rethinking AEP. This usually happens at some point every year, to be honest. Sometimes more than once.
Mainly because my bipolar is so random that I can’t keep to a set schedule. I try again and again to stick to a schedule, then I lose interest because I just don’t care. This isn’t the only state of mind I suffer over my site. Other times I want to post nearly every day. Sometimes more than one post a day even. There’s just no way to predict what mood will strike, though I can control the urge to post all the time.
But I think I’ve reached the point when I don’t care about the impression I’ll be giving if I post more frequently. My main concern with this has been what I’ll post. Mostly longer commentary on the minutiae of my life, to be honest, then what I can post on Twitter. It’ll be trivia, to be honest. Specifically, the kind of trivia I can’t imagine anybody else being interested in because I’m not interested in that kind of trivia. It’s just what I feel like rambling about at length.
No matter my efforts to make my blog and my site more “professional”—I just can’t seem to keep up with it. Rather like my writing, that. I have so many ideals in my mind about my writing that it’ll never meet. I’m trying to learn to accept the fact I’ll always fall short of my writing ideals. Why not throw my blog in with that? I want a professional sight that’s updated regularly.
It’s apparently not going to happen on a schedule.
And, I think, that’s part of what stresses me out to the point of developing a serious case of indifference to whether or not I post anything on my blog at all. Unfortunately (for me), I have a lot of nonsense crap to say, and I happen to enjoy posting it for public consumption. While I do have limits, they more align with what I will and won’t post, not necessarily when or how much info about them I’ll share.
So, maybe expect an uptick in posts here.
I’ve done quite a bit of work of reorganizing the site since the 7th. Since I’m in the middle of a writing downswing, and I wanted something creative do, and the mood struck, I’ve been fiddling with the site. I’ve reorganized my “Published” section and moved my Cancer Posts to a new place there. I may reorganize things there again later, but that largely depends on whether or not I ever get to a point where I can pay publish my writing. One thing you will notice under the “Publish” section is a Wattpad submenu. That’s going to be important here later on. Any series of at least 3 books I’ll be posting only the first book of here on AEP. Latter books will go up on Wattpad. If I’m able to pay pub my books in the future, I’ll more than likely take all but the first off of Wattpad, but for now, I’ll be posting any other series books, standalones, and duologies on Wattpad.
One thing I figured out how to do was add a “Home” link to the top menu as well. It was a pretty simple matter.
I noticed my contact form died in the move from WordPress, so I replaced the coding text with a new actual contact form. Still learning the ins and outs of the contact form, so all fields are required. Just haven’t felt like experimenting with it yet. I’ll explore its different qualities and aspects later on.
Another thing I’m doing is considering a new posting schedule. I do know story stuff will go up fairly regularly as long as I have something to post. I plan on having that on a specific day of the week, possibly Tuesday or Friday. Getting back into posting writing news and such here regularly feels like a good idea right now too, so I’m going to assign either Tuesday or Friday (whichever day I’m not posting story stuff) to such posts, so there will be at least one regular post going up each week regardless of whether or not there’s a bit of story to be posted.
Before I start doing that, though, I need to finish filling in my sidebar. I need to recreate my links menus and do a few other things. Still trying to decide what sorts of things I want to put in my links menus. Also going to figure out where to put my tags and such, and what style I want them to be in (cloud or list).
I’ve been doing a lot more thinking about this site and what I should do with it. To be honest, some things are probably going to remain up in the air for quite some time to come; I’m just undecided on a lot of things about it. One thing I’m certain of, though, is that I need to move away from placing personal posts on here. The results of November’s election made me aware that I have too much to say that I don’t want to adversely affect people’s reaction to my writing, especially since I have plans on putting it out there.
So I’m not posting any more personal stuff up here. No more health reports, no more mentions of goals outside of writing, no posts about what I’m doing in my daily life. I’m moving all that to a blog on another site. Someday, I may connect the two—that blog and this site—from there, but I don’t think I’ll be providing links here to that site. There’s too much stuff that will upset future readers for me to do that.
From now on, this blog here will mostly concern writing. My writing, topics about writing I have an opinion on, et cetera. If you have a deep need to see my personal posts, use my contact form to provide me your email address, and I’ll give you the link to my journal/blog thing. But don’t do this on a whim. If you are not liberal in your social and political views, if you have any issues with people who have mental health problems, if you’re in some way fundamentally religious and have no room in your mind and heart for an alternate view (even one you don’t happen to agree with), or if you merely have a history of getting all riled up from the opinions expressed by a writer whose works you enjoy, please don’t ask for the link to my blog. In my mind, it would be far better for you to continue in your life with your idealized version of me in your mind than for you to be in any way disillusioned by the real me.
If you’d like a peek at the real me without going full-force, follow me on Twitter. I’m not there much right now, but I am on occasionally, and may come on more frequently in future; take a look at my previous posts. On Twitter, I’m a little more real. It should give any who are curious about my social/political and religious leanings a good idea what I’m like and where my feelings on certain aspects of life and the world lie. My Twitter handle is at the right.