I’m once again rethinking AEP. This usually happens at some point every year, to be honest. Sometimes more than once.
Mainly because my bipolar is so random that I can’t keep to a set schedule. I try again and again to stick to a schedule, then I lose interest because I just don’t care. This isn’t the only state of mind I suffer over my site. Other times I want to post nearly every day. Sometimes more than one post a day even. There’s just no way to predict what mood will strike, though I can control the urge to post all the time.
But I think I’ve reached the point when I don’t care about the impression I’ll be giving if I post more frequently. My main concern with this has been what I’ll post. Mostly longer commentary on the minutiae of my life, to be honest, then what I can post on Twitter. It’ll be trivia, to be honest. Specifically, the kind of trivia I can’t imagine anybody else being interested in because I’m not interested in that kind of trivia. It’s just what I feel like rambling about at length.
No matter my efforts to make my blog and my site more “professional”—I just can’t seem to keep up with it. Rather like my writing, that. I have so many ideals in my mind about my writing that it’ll never meet. I’m trying to learn to accept the fact I’ll always fall short of my writing ideals. Why not throw my blog in with that? I want a professional sight that’s updated regularly.
It’s apparently not going to happen on a schedule.
And, I think, that’s part of what stresses me out to the point of developing a serious case of indifference to whether or not I post anything on my blog at all. Unfortunately (for me), I have a lot of nonsense crap to say, and I happen to enjoy posting it for public consumption. While I do have limits, they more align with what I will and won’t post, not necessarily when or how much info about them I’ll share.
So, maybe expect an uptick in posts here.